Feb 17
2009
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this was an app on facebook but I really enjoyed doing it so here are 25 random things about me…….
1) I am Tasmanian born and bread
(2) I secretly love trashy romance novels
(3) I love all things chocolaty
(4) I hate house work and am not very good at it
(5) I have many things in “safe places” so safe I cant even find them
(6) I am still passionately in love with my husband of 11 years ( my heart still goes flipty flop when I see him)
(8) I love sleeping in
(9) purple is my favorite colour
(10)Until recently I didnt even own an iron and now only my hubby uses it
(11) I hate solitude cos I think to much
(12) I get more like my mother every day
(14) I really would like to have dread locks and a tat on my ankle but dont like pain and too much of a chicken to get dreads
(15) We are renting and dont own a car by choice NOT because we are poor
(16) if there are lollies I will eat them even if they are my chidlrens
(18) I hate shopping
(19) sometimes I dont like being a mother cos it is so much about washing and cleaning and and and
(20) I have a favorite child (can you guess which one?) but I do love them all
(21) I wanted to be on young talent time when I was a child
(22) I had about 150 AHA posters on my wall when I was a teenager
(23) I like wine
(24) I will vote for the green party next time
(25) I sometimes swear even when the kids are listening
Feb 09
2009
lou| Category: Uncategorized |
I know that every blogger in Melbourne will blog about this but I must even if it is simply to help me process the horror of Saturday that continues to unfold.
It was the hotest day in history here on Saturday, 46.7 degrees thats ten degrees above our normal body temp. The premier had warned us to stay in doors as it was going to be the worst day in history and his how true his words were to become.
The fires, some lit by completely mindless idiots, and some we are still to know why they started, are said to be the worst ever.
The human cost is huge whole townships completely obilterated, one such town had 15mins notice as the fire storm changed course trapping 90 percent of the residents with no hope of doing anything to stop being burnt alive.
I sat stunned watching sunrise this am as this man pleaded for news of his wife and children (3). The last time this distraught man had heard from them was his wife screaming down the phone as the fires burned towards her. I just can not imagine how he must feel.
I then went to my kids assembly and absent mindly asked one of the mums how she was she burst into tears, her brother and sister in law and their 3 kids live in King lake and are missing presumed dead I simply held her hand as she cried I had no words of comfort. Imagine being with your kids as the fire cam towards you knowing you and they were to die. The horror of it will prob keep me up tonite and it has certainly made me hug my own family allot today
My nephews kindergarten is burned to the ground and the street their block of land is on is the only street around them to not be destroyed. Only the other day we were wandering around looking as the other blocks with beautiful houses, chicken runs, lamas and other animals, all gone now.
I am devastated and feel useless there is nothing I can do. I gave money but that seems so ridiculously small.
Please pray for these families who have lost everything
Jan 08
2009
lou| Category: Uncategorized |
I was reading today about “covering authority” - A doctrine I no longer believe in and have intentions of blogging about further in the future, whist reading about this I came accross this site and it made my blood boil!
I am not really into writing abusive hate mail but this man made me want to email him such a letter and I would if I wasnt sure he would see it as conformation he was doing Gods will and that I was simply persecuting him.
Really I am sick and tired of these types of pastors who claim to have the ear of God and then out come disgusting arrogant nonsense that is based on such a narrow conservative world view and is total and utter crap!
What a small and powerless God he must believe in.
He goes on to say the judgement for the election of BO will abound. How would he know? And I am sorry but if the state if the USA right now is what happens when “God’s will” is carried out then we all need to invest in bomb shelters to protect us from the terrible things that will happen in the next four years- what a crock!!!!
Why does it have to always be about whether a candidate is pro life or not that defines him as a Christian? What about war mongering, not feeding and clothing the naked and not loving their neighbors?
Don’t get me wrong I believe that life is life wether its 2days or 40 weeks post conception but that it is my own personal belief and is based on my faith, not a political bent. And in my opinion a pro life stance is little compensation for the disgusting things the apparently “God chosen president” did during his long reign in office. Not to mention there a more poor in America than ever before
Before the last election in Aus I read a book called Gods Politics and it helped me to see that my vote is needed but that I should vote for people who’s policies line up with my core values- and do you know who that was? The Green Party, most Christians in Aus would see them as anti christian and they are not perfect but they were the closest by a long way. So I shall be voting for them or any independent that stands up for the environment and the poor from now on
Anyway I have had my little vent and feel much better 
Jan 03
2009
lou| Category: Uncategorized |
So its 2009 and I am turning 34 in May 
where exactly has all that time gone!
I am officially the age where I am supposed to join the ranks of the soccer mum. You know super woman who comes with: SUV, blond foils, perfect house, beautiful well behaved children, seemingly perfect life, standing on the side lines while those perfect children live the dreams we failed at.
In 2008 I could feel myself slipping into the soccer mum groove. I had lost sight of who I was and why I am here in Melbourne. Too much time spent with the PFA mothers and pretending Ive got it together. It would be oh so easy to forget our pledge to live the simple life and love those less fortunate than ourselves and simply blend in with the crowd but it is not who God has asked me to be and perhaps that is why I have been feeling unhappy lately?
I love my kids and support them where I can and of course want them to be a star at something but I cant be a soccer mums, its all about appearances and quiet frankly I am not very good at pretending everything is bright and shiny. For a start I do not have perfect children (my 4 yr old believes rules are for other people), my house is never tidy (accept for about 30secs post cleaning once a week) and I will NOT drive and SUV not so much because they are an environmental disaster, which of course they are, but because I would never be able park the thing and I hate blond foils.
But really the whole middle class soccer mum thing just does not fit with my core values
So what to do? ………well I’ll tell you what I did, I just spent 3hrs at the hairdressers and now have dark chocolate hair with purple ends- yes purple. I am looking forward to the first day of term when I see some of the mothers again I am sure they will be polite but who knows what they really think.
But my new hair is just symbolic…… I am determined to live this year as the woman God wants me to be. To do that I will have to put aside the fear of not being in the “in” crowd and step way out of my comfort zone. I will have to love the “unlovely” again and ask God for compassion and zeal. I will have to push away the desire to be normal and act the was society wants me to act - To be a revolutionary, Quiet frankly that scares me witless but I am determined to do it and now I have a reminder that goes with me and I will see it whenever I look in the mirror
So please pray for me that I will have the endurance to see this thing through and the determination to not fit in but bust out and be as bold as my new hair
Dec 17
2008
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Found this link here whilst visiting this blog today and I found it very thought provoking. I can see that I have been through much of what it talks about when I left my church and it was good to see that I have had a relatively normal reaction to what was a very difficult. Have a read what do you think? Is it like your journey?
Dec 17
2008
lou| Category: Uncategorized |
Thats it I give up I am a crier……….
when I was a kid and was upset about something my dad used to say “we dont cry in this house be brave chin up” so I have spent much of my 33 years trying not to cry. I dont think he was being mean I think that he just felt that if you cry then you are letting the thing you were sad about affect you. The thing is that only serves to make me feel worse. When I try not to be upset about something it just ends up 100 times bigger in my head.
Over the past two years I have learnt that there is nothing wrong with having a good old cry and in many ways I feel better when I have. For a while I was visiting a psychologist and she encouraged me to have a crying teddy, whom I would cuddle and share my sadness with. I didn’t go that far but I appreciate her point.
As a mother I cry often as my kids move out of one stage and into another. I used to be embarrassed about this but not anymore it is just part of who I am
Case in point my sister in law took some photos of my nine year old (see them here njoy the moment) I cried like a baby , not because I didn’t like the pics but because I cant believe she is sooo grown up and soooo beautiful.
As a baby Christian I was taught that to cry and feel sad is sin that you must always feel “joy” but I now see that what they saw as joy is happiness and they are two completely different things. Jesus wept after all.
Gods joy to me is that knowing I have that even when I dont feel happy he is right there with a better plan, a good way and he can see the end. That his work in my life is complete even when I can not see the beginning of it. It is NOT warm fuzzies or a sense of happiness as these are only fleeting. JOY in a god sense is a gift from him and something that is eternal and not dependant on how I actually feel. Do I understand what I just wrote. Not really but is is great to know that I dont have to put on my “christian face and smile when all I want to do is weep.
Dec 10
2008
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This was emailed to me by my friend in Tassie and I cried when I saw it couldn’t resist posting it………
“A picture began circulating in November. It should be ‘The Picture of the Year,’ or perhaps, ‘Picture of the Decade.’ It won’t be. In fact,unless you obtained a copy of the US paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.
The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner.
The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother’s womb. Little Samuel’s mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr Bruner’s remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt Univ Med Ctr in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon’s finger. Dr Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.
The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity The editors titled the picture, ‘Hand of Hope.’ The text explaining the picture begins, ‘The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother’s uterus
to grasp the finger of Dr Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.’
Little Samuel’s mother said they ‘wept for days’ when they saw the picture. She said, ‘The photo reminds us pregnancy isn’t about disability or an illness, it’s about a little person.’Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful. “
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Dec 02
2008
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I visited Heather’s blog today and found this typealyzear. I am not attuned to pleasure or beauty but think I would be if I had time but the rest is fairly like me. I don’t like confrontation but will have a go if pushed.I often confront people in my mind rather than in real life. I often exhaust myself by putting others first and love to help others in a way that can be seen.
I also did my Hubby’s blog which came just like him also weird. I am not really into personality profiling as it was something my ex-church used against people to to excuse bad behavior of leaders.
I am not putting any weight on this just thought it was a bit of fun
Here is wot it said
ESFP - The Performers
The entertaining and friendly type. They are especially attuned to pleasure and beauty and like to fill their surroundings with soft fabrics, bright colors and sweet smells. They live in the present moment and don´t like to plan ahead - they are always in risk of exhausting themselves.
The enjoy work that makes them able to help other people in a concrete and visible way. They tend to avoid conflicts and rarely initiate confrontation - qualities that can make it hard for them in management positions.
Nov 17
2008
lou| Category: Uncategorized |
My oldest daughter was in the myer Christmas parade on Saturday and of course she was fab But that is not wot my post is about today. My post is about the emptiness of the whole event.
The entire 3hrs was a great big marketing scam. It was empty and sad. No real Christmas spirit or joy just merchandise and adds disguised as floats.
Next to us was a portable grandstand where people who had Myers Visa Cards were aloud to sit. They received drinks and food on tap and had a great view. My 4 year old (not being backwards and not understanding social etiquette) climbed thorough the fence and sat herself on these chairs, much to the disgust of on of the “special people”.
What these people didn’t realize that they were not really special they just have a credit car (ie debt) with myers name on it. They were there to be the tv audience a pawn of myers not a specially invited guest.
Why do we celebrate debt?
As the world financial crisis goes on and 1000s of people become poorer than before we continue to glorify the living beyond our means mentality.
Our Aussie government in it “wisdom” is giving low income families $1000 bonus at Christmas under the guise of “helping with the cost of Christmas time” when really it is all about money being spent to sure up our economy. Also they have increased the home buyers grant to 30 000 to allow more people to buy their first home. All I can see is more people getting into massive debt they cant really afford.
I was saddened by the commercialism of the parade. I didn’t expect any Christian messages but I did expect fun and frivolity because we could not because it would make us shop at Myer
We as a society seem to have bought into a empty life that seems bright and shiny but really is empty and cold, lacking real emotion and controlled by consumerism and greed and advertising
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Nov 10
2008
lou| Category: Uncategorized |
Here is my photo with the word wash as its inspiration as challenged by Kel on her Blog
This photo was taken some time ago so it is cheating a little but it really is how I am sometimes as a busy mum. I am always rushing and although this is a little extreme I often get somewhere and look down and Jay or Tilly or both will have filthy faces. Thx Kel this made me smile
