My own Psalms
This is my first piece for some time mainly due to technical issues but also because I didn’t feel I had anything worth contributing to anyone. I have since discovered that it is not about the everyone but just writing my thoughts and if people choose to read well that’s good if not well that’s good too.
Life has been some how pressing in on me. Not that my life is stressful or terrible. I just find being a mother and wife and working 3 days difficult and there is often no room for me in all that.
I grab hold of others opinion because they sound good or I resonate with some of what they say without really understanding what it is they mean.
I stress about every inch of my life to the point where my anxiety is needing professional help to control.
I cry everyday for no reason and little things make me angry
I am always diagnosing myself with a terminal disease
Basically my soul is a mess
I have returned this week to the Psalms and find that David in the wilderness felt much like me. Scared alone and half crazy. I feel like my enemies (in this case the ones inside my own head) are constantly chasing me and I am on the run.
So I am going to write my own psalms. I am not a poet or a writer so my words will be stumbling and not worthy of any literary acclaim but they will be my words
A conversation between my messed up self and God-my journey to mental wholeness so maybe I wont be so “half crazed or mad” anymore
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