Jesus: who are you?
My therapist asked me yesterday why it took me so long to get help when I new something was wrong for a long time. I told her I didn’t know but have reflected on this today.
The answer is that I subscribed to the fairly commonly held belief that if I believed hard enough and prayed about it enough then Jesus would come and magically my anxiety and sadness would disappear.
I sought the council of others from within the established modern church who confirmed this belief. It was all about convincing myself that Jesus is the way to a happy perfect life and eventually it would happen. If I sing about being joyful eventually I will be.
Not so. His words never promise that, the opposite in some cases in fact But it is what I was taught from being a baby Christian. So the trouble is I struggle now with who Jesus actually is, what he actually promises and how does that affect my life in the here and now.
I do not doubt that his death and resurrection mean I have been forgiven of my sin and can live in heaven with Him one day
What I do not know is what do I do in the mean time. How do I interact with Jesus and He with me.
What is appropriate to pray and what is just based on the doggy belief that He is a mister fix it here to make my new life all plain sailing?
Once I thought I new how to hear His voice, no I know I don’t.
Any ideas?
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Kel
17. April 2008 | 17:53 hyour previous post possibly answered some of this
his voice is still and quiet and often hidden
which is why we are told to “seek” him,
when things are dark, it’s often impossible to “hear” him
but I promise you, he is sitting there in the dark with you
he is not afraid of working in the shadows with you
for he knows that is where you will learn the truth,
about yourself
about others
about him